Dear Diary

Back home from a long tour of the outside world.

Charmed to see that smiling Maa's Face.

Back in Dad's oh! So comforting cuddle.

Sleeping here in my room, I drift away.

A reflection of my life beyond this place I call home,

Faces of people, I didn't know some time back, 
start a long thread of memories.

People I affectionately have nicknamed,

People I have had pillow fights with,

People who know just too much,

People I have cuddled like it was the last,

People I now adore with the whole of my heart.

It's difficult to find such great friends, I have heard.

Is it so? Or am I just purely lucky?

Sitting here on my terrace swing,
with a balmy breeze in my hair.

My mind is stuck with one question.

Where's the daddy's little girl..?

Who just wanted to spend the whole of the weekend at home?
Talking and jumping around?

Where's my mom's little angel?
Who was content just being around her?

And who's this who craves to be the same yet so different.

Away from everyone yet so close.

To look for the brightness of the world and fiddle with its darkness.

What is this? Who is this?

I know what is it,

So virtual yet so real.

Part of growing up,
Part of life.

Mmmmm..

I guess..

Snippet from my diary

I have a Dream.

I need to achieve it, I am very keen.

It's been years since the seed was sown,

got buried under withered success and gravelly expectations.

The sand of reality was not fertile.

Eroded genesis from " I need " to "I should".

The current of unstoppable has brought it here,

blazing temptations of the ornate world are still severe.

With the humus of will and perseverant protection of desire,

It will sprout and bloom.

For even the blaze is important in right amount,

So is the earth with its riches and doubts.

With sand in an hourglass, slipping too fast,

is left too small.

There comes spring after winter and fall.

"when things go wrong, as they sometimes will"

Life, happiness, trust, relations are some words which are perceived with assorted emotions by mind and conscious, varying from manas-to-manas (person-to-person) and even day-to-day.

On a day when everything seems to fall apart, in a state of annihilation; life is adjustment, happiness seems far off, trust sublimes and relations become complicated. Filling  a void, makes space for another somewhere. 

In this scenario it is advised to take advice from, someone, who has a good view of the whole picture. At this very moment abhijna (ubhij^na;direct perception) is required. 

Abhijna along with atma vichara (aatma vichaar; inquiry into the Self) is the best advice anyone can receive. Seeking advice is the first sign of loosing trust in self, trust in your actions, trust in your judgments  No one other than yourself can know how the shoe fits.

Taking a detailed overview of the situation and perseverance helps. Chose what you feel is good and right, keeping your mind and conscious in sync. Be who you want to be.

Doing things the way you want them to do gives, sometimes a little in beginning, but a sense of purna (poorn; fullness; completeness). As this sense of satisfaction and fullness grows it leads to the other,than previously perceived, brighter and greater meaning of  life, happiness, trust and relations.

“Be yourself; everyone else is already taken.” ― Oscar Wilde